woo, long post..
have been working.. for the past weeks. creative is really keeping me busy. this is my third week. and things are so far so good i should say. still many things to learn as always..
anyway.. nie has gotten back.. they actually offered me a contract untrained teacher position before i am CONSIDERED for the dip programme.. that's after 1-1.5 yrs.. nb.. 5 yrs not enough now moe want 6.5 yrs of sc's life.. so the fickle minded sc has decided not to accept the generous offer and move on in creative..
turning back to creative, tan's considering to let me consider to accept a contract position in creative. in other words, he'll consider offering me a contract position after the book fair.. thereafter i have to consider whether to accept it or not..
and now sc has drawn up a simple life plan for herself.. nb.. of course accept the contract offer lah.. study part time then after that either still continue in creative or go for hotel.. btw.. sc is in dilemma now whether to go for SMa or kaplan.. both murdoch.. but SMa offer more variety for majors.. major things.. is murdoch widely accepted in singapore? and the PRICE... poor sc doesn't even have money to study.. tutu niao..
next up.. book fair.. challenging.. i can do it!! we can all do it!!
子曰：「可与共学，未可与适道；可与适道，未可与立；可与立，未可与权。」
所以，人应该珍惜身边的每个朋友。
然而真正失去时，才不会有遗憾。
两晚都梦见你。
梦里你好像真的就在我身边。
一次你在睡觉，一次只听见你的声音 (我还差点骂你)。
张开眼睛，才发觉，你真的不在了。
看不到你了，摸不着你了，听不见你了。
能不能让我好好看着你，好好对你说句话？
这五月，好不一样。
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 11:46 PM
first week without him...
its been a week... his 7th day... by chinese tradition.. he'll come back home today. and we burnt stuff for him..
a week.. this one week has been difficult and too fast for the family.. sis has been tied down with all the paper work.. mom is disstressed by many many stuff.. i'm.. damn fine..
would really have to thank my 五舅, 三姨丈, 四姨, and 五姨.. they have really helped us a lot... financially, mentally, and physically.. now my house looks totally different.. cos they helped clear everything like as if we're moving house.. and they spent a lot i guess.. i dunno how i can express my gratitude towards them.. but.. seriously.. i am very very glad that u are all my favourite relatives.. malaysia relatives i love u all!
anyway.. the paternal side relatives are redundant unless they are blaming people.. and acting sad.. and fuck that bitch.. she actually had the face to come and put up such a big show.. u fucking dun ever show up in front of my if not i'll fucking blow up ur face..
and i think i blew up my moe interview.. so.. guess i have to go for a backup plan.. future.. you are so bleak...
一个星期了。
这个星期里，你去了那里?
有想我们吗? 还是你在恨我们呢？
你回来了吧？可以不要走吗？
时时刻刻都想到你。我知道已经太晚了。
每次想到你，内疚的心情就不受控制的浮现。
他们说得对。我们应该立刻把你送到医院。
我应该尽量叫醒你。把你叫回来。
应该守在你旁边。以免有事。
现在已经太晚了。
我只能说，是我害死你的。
对不起。
不能再流泪。
我是快乐地。
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:05 AM
he's gone...
29 February 2008. His last day.
I tried to wake him up. I felt all his pulses. nothing. i thought i was too flustered to feel anything. i kept pushing him.. calling out to him.. shaking him.. he just felt so lifeless.. mother was in the bathroom. sis was out. no one was around me. i felt so helpless. i want him to wake up. yet he just laid there.
10.55pm. they announced it protocol-ly. a sentence given by the judge to us. he's gone. forever.
他们说你还有三到六个月。
三到六个月，还没机会好好的看你。
你却那么快就走了。
是我的错。我知道你有要叫我。
如果我没有背对着你，我就会知道有不妥。
我就能救你。
你还没看到我二十一岁。
你还没看到我们成功。
你还没休息，享受。
我还没对你好。我却把你害死。
我什么都没做到。
是我不孝。
老爸，你到底去了哪里？
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:19 AM
SC.. or Kerry?
aka Black
aka Ah Chan
06231987
SLEEP
Daydreaming~
$$$$$
J-pop & Manga
锦户 亮 (Kanjani8)
生田 斗真
森田 刚 (V6)
Bleach
the '仲良's
Bah Bah 6 Jie Mei
the Gang
GFDT Club
Xiao Mei
Xiao Qiangs..
Esp those that flies!
an instrument of my own
bike and car license
honda jazz
honda CBF 150
a new bike
a new mp3
a permanent slimdown
more shirts
more money
a long long long break..
the piano.. so someone..
song composing
master my instrument
master the plane
cha do
Jap (languange)
first aiding
swimming (oops)
dance (heh??)
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