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Tuesday, December 25, 2007


festive season...

Merry Christmas Everyone... =)


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 10:34 AM





i seriously dun understand..

one moment he's barking mad.. spouting the ugliest things imaginable on earth..
one moment he's violent.. threatening my head..
one moment he's depressed.. 哭父哭母-ing...
one moment he's suicidal.. 哭父哭母-ing and attempting..

constantly..
he's giving us hell.. killing my senses..
i can only taste fury.. and be engulfed by hatred.. of the deepest..

i noe i'm a failure.. not even being able to provide when he needs to go to the hospital..
but damn it..
sometimes i have the feeling its not even real..
even if it is.. we aren't like people who can provide so much extra cash..

condemn me to the worst of all people..
i am very clear of the sins of fillial piety i have commited..
and sometimes.. i dun care..

be amazed that i haven't even laid the chopper on his head..
not even once these 20 years of my life..
be amazed i'm still sane..
for living in this place.. for 20 years of my life..

maybe i'm not even sane..
who noes...


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 6:55 AM



Saturday, December 08, 2007


yappari...

so he's back.. but its annoying.. he's still as annoying and irritating as ever.. but even worse.. he keeps talking and talking and speaks in that "ke lian chong" voice.. which is.. super unbearable.. but in any case.. we shall all be glad he's looking and feeling better...

have not been doing much the past week... just work.. and getting leave.. and work... people at GE are really going to hate me for getting so many leaves... but heck.. i can't wait till my last day.. finish christmas.. and start life anew..

and today.. after sleeping half the day away... finally moved myself out of the house and finish my stuff.. and finally bought my bike!! ok.. bicycle!!! went to the shop opp khatib camp initially.. but it was closed.. and when i asked the auntie from the laundry shop beside it she told me the shop closed for one year already.. what the.. sad sia.. so went to chong pang.. got to this shop... saw the bike.. got it.. and now i'm super happy!!! whakaka..













mitte!! mitte!! the bike the bike!! eh.. ignore those extra stuffs.. hehe..






been trying to change "blogskin".. k.. just the picture.. but.. ya. still trying huh.. so.. hold on a bit.. hmm... and i got nothing much to say already...

bleach 151!!!!




安心... 哈哈...


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:11 AM



Sunday, December 02, 2007


please...

suddenly realised today.. how bad i've been treating him these past years.. and that if i won't see him anymore.. i will really regret.. regret for the way i have treated him.. regret for why i have not at least taken more care when he was so sick..

when i really laid my eyes on him on the bed.. i realised how skinny he's become.. how frail he looked.. how weak.. and realised how i haven't been noticing him.. watching them carry him away.. pushing him away into the lift.. it was unrest... worry.. and guilt..

now i have another worry.. how much is this going to cost? will i have the money to handle it?

i dun wish to see death.. in such a painful manner..

please.. let him live.. please...


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 1:52 AM



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..HaTeS..
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..wiShiNg fOr..
an instrument of my own
bike and car license
honda jazz
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a new mp3
a permanent slimdown
more shirts
more money
a long long long break..


..wAntS tO LeArN..
the piano.. so someone..
song composing
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