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Sunday, April 29, 2007


cUi-ed...

Was super late for sentosa today... And I even forgot to bring the thumbdrive when i went out.. In such a rush.. Sorry Wen Ping.. Pass to you next time k... Reached Siloso around 2.. subway.. then carlsberg tower.. back to siloso.. and was nua-ing there..

later on stupid qf come sit beside me... they were trying to find people to throw into the water.. aimed swee yin but qf dun dare touch girls he dunno.. then in the end dunno y aim me.. thanks huh.. qf.. u idiot.. they tried to throw me high up.. i think i too heavy lah.. whakaka.. challenging for them.. cos i only flew a bit..

eat... yishun.. home.. although they didn't enjoy it as a whole.. hopefully everyone enjoyed their day.. sorry.. i didn't try to entertain everyone.. dunno how to lah.. LoL.. and hope all of you like the very big bookmark.. paiseh... no time to resize..

very tired now.. so much so that i'm stoning while typing this.. but still need to thanks chao, justin, japheth, qf, mofo, alvin and pam for acc-ing today for this outing.. =)

just thought of something.. this is the last outing we'll go.. as lsct gls.. after this.. we're no more official lsct gls le.. last.. time flies huh...


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:51 AM



Saturday, April 28, 2007


naNi??

went out with bee cheng today!! ha... hmm.. ate ljs.. went amk hub walk walk.. bought her present for her god daughter... then we went home.. oh.. she's dye-ing hair.. want to see neh.. whakaka...

then went to dhoby ghaut.. vin.. pam.. mofo.. ron.. ate riverside chicken which is nice.. but super ex now.. oh ya.. and i saw the jacket i wanted at cathay lah!!! $109... kns.. i shall sell the one i have now.. anyone wanna buy? hehe...

at one point of the time during the day.. was actually quite sad.. but nvm.. i'm ok now.. just that the songs that i'm listening to hooking up my down side... whatever lah...

sentosa later.. enjoy huh...

sorry bahs.. i can't go out with u all just now.. neither later.. really sorry... spiderman huh..


想太多了。。真的。。
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做太多了？可能吧。
对我来说是值得的。。
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应该停止吧。太深很难爬出来吧。
因为本来就是她的错。


music playing: S.H.E- 怎么办


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:32 AM



Thursday, April 26, 2007


coMpLicateD...

was late for work today.. cos i woke up at 11.13am.. and i'm supposed to start work at 11.. so rushed and reached around 12.. wasn't of much help in the kitchen actually.. and while frying fish.. i was like training myself for 十八层地狱.. cos my middle finger went into the hot oil.. and the sleepy me went really awake.. and it hurts lah. but the finger looks ok.. and poor ah gong sliced off a bit of his skin from a finger too.. accident prone day huh.. went out as runner after break.. extend till 11.30.. end up waiting for transport.. and helping da zhong close bar.. LoL..

tml split shift again.. but whole day kitchen.. good luck to them man.. hopefully i'm not as blur.. shall slp later ba...

oh.. and i got bronze cert for cca.. saw the letter when i reached home.. surprised.. at least one achievement in my cock up poly life huh.. LoL..

random thoughts...

天外里。劳父子用了一种方法来看出人与人的距离感。那方法，真的惯用吗？
花样里，瑞希也用了一种方法拉近距离。
人与人之间的距离感，真的很重要吧。
那距离感能因为单纯的感觉而拉近。但也能被误会，背叛，和小小的事而疏远。
而有些距离，可能保持着，会比较好。有些，越近越好。
她很想拉近莫些距离，但一些真的很难。一些，根本不知道该怎么拉近。
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那神奇应该只会发生一次吧。。
对。人的一生中，奇迹通常只发生一次吧。
多谢那奇迹。
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他好像没有读到那段字母。不然就是他还生气。
我只想说。我是诚心的。不接受，就算了。
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人们的品味怪怪的。有那么差吗。。
她说了，朋友比较重要。而他应得的是更好的。
真的，朋友真的较重要。也不能失去。
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她最近的心情起伏不定。
几时会安抚下来呢? 越快越好吧。。


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:25 AM



Wednesday, April 25, 2007


inTerVieW....

okie.. interview at uob.. actually i lost my way... but i didn't tell the others.. cos confirm gena shoot.. i was supposed to go plaza 1.. but i ended up at plaza 2.. and finding plaza 1 when its just opposite.. kk... but the interview was ok... but i think the way i answered the questions turned off the interviewers.. all of them were women.. first time.

i dunno if i really want the job.. for the money.. i really do.. but for the life.. i dunno.. i heard its a very no life job.. hmm.. shall see how...

i dunno why.. but i'm really looking forward to the sentosa outing.. LoL...

oh.. and friday meeting bee cheng.. go library..

work tml... split shift... good luck to me.. good luck to kitchen people. hope they wun jam.. LoL.. hope lah huh..


快来了。希望能开心的过去。
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神奇的事原来真的会发生。


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 1:03 AM



Tuesday, April 24, 2007


neW SkiN~~

yay... finally.. the blog skin is done.. a bit messy though.. and i may want to change some of the pictures.. waiting for more 6 jie mei pics.. and maybe other pics ba.. why i used those pictures?

the yellow tee one cos its the one with all my fellow gls there.. F08 gls only pic.. sentosa outing.. my fellow main comm.. bah bah 6 jie mei only full pic.. gfdtc full pics.. the others are just stuff i like.. like gin and urahara.. jack from nightmare before christmas.. L from death note.. satoshi from DN angel.. V6 Morita Go.. wanted to include hu ge.. but nvm.. LoL.. and lastly.. a pic of me!! with my name!!.. LoL.. ya.. that's about it..

tml interview... wish me luck huh..


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:58 AM



Sunday, April 22, 2007


GiRL??

koon came to talk to me suddenly.. like since dunno how long.. and tried to ask me to sleep..

but he failed.. and he started telling me he's glad i look more girl now.. and wee kiat posted a comment in friendster too..
"Weekiat Posted 20/4/2007
yo man...xiao hei...i cant believe u become so nu ren...coool man...haha"

like.. what's with the omg.. you look more girl now thing... i'm still a boy boy to my poly mates lah.. LoL.. and i dun deny that.. k.. but thanks for the comments huh..

and i really miss you peeps.. i'm like totally detached from my sec sch mates.. except for one or two.. sadded.. see how anti social i am.. whakaka..
hey hey.. come contact me man.. LoL...



说得对。。是时候了。
该怎么开始呢。。


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 6:27 AM





rEMinisCes... PArT 2...

hmm.. this is going to be another long long entry.. *reader* you are warned!!

I fell down on my butt while bathing!!! LoL.. pains pains.. but no bruise.. LoL.. my butt too bah.. got cushion to protect me.. whakakaka... okeh.. shall not talk about my butt anymore.. joke of the day>>>

one day.. mr potato was walking on the streets and behold!! he threw tissue paper onto the floor... mr policeman saw.. and he stopped mr potato...
mr policeman: "mr potato.. littering is an offence.. fine!! $100!!"
mr potato: "oh? my $100? you are too kind.. its fine.. thank you.."
mr policeman: "No!! I mean fine $100!! @#%*&"
mr potato: "yes yes!! its fine!! why do you ask?? and y are u shouting?!"
mr policeman: "I mean you have to give me $100 cos' its a fine!!"
mr potato: "yes its fine! so why should I give it to you?".. mr policeman faints..

whakakaka.... not funny right.. but i'm laughing now.. dun ask y i used mr potato.. LoL..

kk.. let's take a walk down memory lane since i'm bored..

it started when I was in sec 1.. all the seniors knew who I was.. cos' of my sister.. they wanted me to join chinese orchestra (CO).. i joined and progressed well.. i had basics since pri sch.. others of my level had to learn another instrument.. i was a sore to them.. i was taken straight into the main orchestra.. while they learned their basics outside.. all left.. and i was the only one left in CO in my level.. got syf gold with the seniors.. being the youngest player..

sec 2.. elections came.. everyone expected me to be the vice chair.. i thought otherwise.. but ended up vice chair.. i didn't like it.. but i tried my best.. practised everyday.. instilled discipline.. trained the rest.. and earned some hate along the way.. "aiyah.. she got this position cos' of her sister lor.. "

sec 3.. chairwoman.. i pulled potentials into my comm and was very strict.. some disliked the way i work.. others thought they would do better.. "she like them ma.. she bias lor.. that's y they in".. i turned deaf and went on my way.. syf.. we got silver.. the instructors told me its our first time competing as full ensemble.. and we did well.. but to me.. i failed as a chairwoman.. to achieve a gold for them.. some blamed me too.. and i was really sorry..

sec 4... i still went back.. no longer the chairwoman.. just a normal member.. "she come back for what.. not chairwoman le still come back".. "wah.. want come back command again ah"..

poly year 1.. my society's GL.. i wasn't very garang.. ponned trainings.. very quiet.. a bit un-on.. and everyone knew my potato joke.. dun ask why.. kept to my classmates.. but opened up after trial camp and foc.. and i found myself with a big family.. we went through more than i can imagine.. all 46 of us.. and i loved being a log comm..

year 2.. main comm elections.. i thought.. apply try try lor.. got in.. i was really happy.. a small asst publicity.. together with my friends and seniors.. but that happiness didn't last long.. "they pull votes then get in one lor".. "some shouldn't even be in".. "oei.. main comm!".. it tore friendships apart.. but fortunately most were saved..

unwelcomed comments.. politics.. the burden.. i wanted to quit.. i had my resignation letter ready.. but they convinced me to stay.. and i thought.. i shall put in all my effort.. shirts and posters.. then foc came.. we tried our best.. but nobody saw except ourselves.. and we said.. heck it.. we dun need it anyways..

year 3.. we didn't want to run anymore.. but we thought we better.. and we applied.. but none of us got in.. except for him.. and we knew he could do it.. and i thought finally i'm free of the politics and everything.. mia-ed for quite a long time..

then some of us went back.. the rest.. i need say no more..

in these 7 years.. i learned that people with high authority will always.. at one point.. be hated by someone.. i learned that having power is not everything.. it comes with heavy burden.. and it requires endless effort in everything.. without any recognition.. but i also have learned how to manage many things.. and many organizational skills.. and i'm thankful for it.. but i'm tired of it..

thanks everyone who have taught me something along this journey.. i shall cherish it..


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 4:07 AM



Friday, April 20, 2007


rEMinisCes...

another long long post..

k.. i'm bored.. so I went to lsct forumand took a walk down memory lane.. my batch post foc thread and log comm post foc thread..

LSCT GLs.. where I got to know many many close and good friends.. like my bah bah 6 jie mei.. bitch club.. the gang.. justin.. ashton.. bernard.. royston.. mofo.. good friends die together club.. and many many others.. i even found my pri. sch mate jason tan.. its where I learned a lot about life.. how to enjoy it.. and how to open up.. callam.. teh sii.. O.C.. log comm.. sandman.. i will never forget.. cos' I've really enjoyed what I've been doing with everyone.. I haven't been a lot of help.. be it as a GL.. main comm publicity.. or even an AGL.. but I hope I played a small part in everyone's life..

while reading the threads.. I had such a tremendous urge to bring back my GL life.. so much so that I was sure I stopped the clock.. cos we've been so united.. cos we did so much together.. cos we've really gone through think and thin.. cos we never gave up on each other.. but its all gone now.. everyone has gone their seperate ways.. and we must move on..

more people came in the 2 years after my GL life.. they all played a part too.. my freshies lye huat (who's from my sec sch) and jeremy yeo have grown.. their peers have grown too.. although i'm still not really close with them.. but i'm glad i went back as an AGL.. cos' we didn't want to at first.. cos i found real nice juniors there.. people who made us return.. people whom I can talk to like normal friends.. and not to forget my xiao mei.. ha..

and to someone.. your name is THW.. after reading the threads.. i've decided.. there's no point for us to continue hating each other.. i can't say i've forgiven you cos' you really did not do anything wrong.. though you did hurt me a lot and i hated you.. i knew that i regarded you as a true friend.. i think you still hate me.. but now i'm telling you.. i still regard you as a friend.. cos of all the shit we've gone through together.. and cos it hurts so much to hate someone..

Katarukito asked me what's friendship.. he told me some answered its like a vase.. i was stunned by the question at first.. but when i gave it a good thought.. my answer was.. water.. cos friendship can take any shape.. but when heated.. it can dissapear and form a black cloud somewhere.. when frozen.. it turns icy cold.. but when handled with care.. it can be as calm and close to us as ever.. and its precious.. as everyone needs it.. without it.. we'll die..

i've learnt: treasure friendship.. its precious..


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 3:46 AM



Wednesday, April 18, 2007


cheERs~!!

Firstly, Happy Birthday to Jessie Ng!!! My Bah Yii!!! 20 le!! So fast.. sorry I didn't join you all for the celebration.. just hope you really enjoyed your day.. I still remember vividly your celebration last year.. *flashback*












pweetty bah yii opening her seksi pwesent..


Hmm.. went back to school for lunch with wei san.. but apparently the foodcourts were flooded with people and we decided to wait for the flood to clear.. then it was yong tau foo at canteen 1.. afterwhich we set off supposedly for the cheering competition at 3.. however, due to some technical fault with the organiser, the competition is actually at 5..

so me and alvin, joined by ws and pei fen went to watch "emperor's new groove" at the library.. the old librarian auntie (monster) got serious pronounciation problem.. and I cannot borrow book from NP anymore.. so sad.. and the "emperor's new groove" super funny cans.. just a cartoon.. but super funny lor.. there were things like "nostrils flare of total rejection".. LoL...

then finally cheer came.. they cheered their hearts out.. and they got 3rd out of 5.. which was really great.. cos to me, they will be number 1.. of course.. we're always number 1.. ha.. they did their best.. without loudhailers and scripts and they even shaked hands with the winner.. great sportsmanship.. jia you people!!

crapped with the GLs a bit after the competition and went off first.. really glad about the day with ws.. and hope she enjoyed it too... sorry if i didn't really take good care of you ah.. hehe.. i'm a bit blur.. hehe.. see ya soon then! hopefully! =)






我知道这样下去不行，但我好像还想继续。
离别的痛，可能到时候真的会来吧。
那时候，大家该怎么办。。


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:07 AM



Monday, April 16, 2007


mountains of feelings..

k.. this is going to be another long post.. basically.. i went to vivo w/ vin and pam today and we lam nua-ed there.. LoL.. nothing to do lah.. so we rather go lam nua..

firstly.. i shall announce that.. i have a xiao mei!! wei san!! i'm so happy!! we are very very similar in many many ways.. like we have relatives from malaysia.. both in log.. love phantom of opera.. etc etc.. i'm super happy.. my first xiao mei.. shall try my best to take care of her.. i guess.. i hope..

after reading many posts.. many people talking to me.. here's my story..

We came back.. Not for anyone.. But for Ron.. We didn't want him to collapse.. We became his support.. took the trainings.. and went for trial camp.. unwelcomed comments came.. but we took it in our stride.. because we knew there was misunderstandings.. which was cleared..

question.. should we go back for foc? we looked at the comments and them.. we decided.. we should.. for them, we stayed on for holidays and foc.. as days passed.. they grew.. even the seniors grew.. foc came.. we went back to help.. everyone put in their best.. even if there was mistakes everywhere.. we tried to cover up.. still there was unwelcomed comments from "upstairs"..

then i thought.. for fuck i come back and be kb-ed at everytime.. for fuck i do so much and in the end people think that i have done nothing.. for fuck i try so hard and people say what the fuck have u done.. for fuck i try to clear things up and be kb-ed for not coordinating well.. but something came.. i saw the "beloved AGLs".. i was so happy i nearly cried.. but i held back.. i went away.. then this event made me so high.. i forgot what I was thinking a few moments ago..

post camp.. we told them they did very well.. they themselves some thought they did well.. some didn't.. it doesn't matter.. because they are in the position to comment.. but there are just those comments.. which seriously are demoralising.. and even indirectly to us.. but i fuck it.. seriously..

because I got what I needed from them and the seniors.. they told me we have really teached them well.. they told me we were really nice.. they told me they really wanted us back.. and its really enough.. the seniors have really grown and become teachers themselves.. its a relief.. i was touched.. and i am assured.. my time has ended.. their time has come.. the seniors have succeeded.. they have graduated.. we have fulfilled our job..

thanks you all for everything.. I have learned a lot through these 3 years of my GL life.. I still have the passion.. but passion will never out beat restrictions.. i wanna thank all who have gone through these 3 years of GL life with me.. you noe who you are.. even if you just appeared like super late in these 3 years.. salute to all.. and great thanks..

LSCT will run forever... trust me..


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 3:22 AM



Saturday, April 14, 2007


FOC~!!!

Hey hey~ I'm finally back from camp! Hmm.. Its a great FOC yet again.. this is gonna be a long post..

Prep camp was fine.. As the AGLs just went to see see look look at everything.. Log comm and games comm people did a good job with the log room.. Welfare people did a great job for their flags.. food comm also helped out in many things..

tag presentation.. everyone was so high.. and i'm so glad everyone has graduated as a GL and the SGLs going onto AGLs.. my god.. so fast neh.. and to everyone who sees this.. my nick is bah bah which means 肉肉 not bah bah black sheep.. LoL.. stupid joel.. keep singing bah bah black sheep..

FOC 1st day.. i was at telematch.. and because of lack of sleep.. i was super high.. and did a lot of stupid things.. and everyone made an effort to fix the canvas sheet.. though there was a bit of incoordination and everything.. but all was ok.. and when telematch started all the groups the GLs all cheering for them.. woo!! A & D.. i played a game of dumb with royston and the GLs at the spider station.. the one at convention basement.. dunno the name for that..

2nd day.. mass games was super high for me.. was with sniper and sniper did a great job!! station games.. hmm.. due to wet weather.. got sudden change of games.. mofo and me went to planta paradise to help out.. and it was a bad choice.. cos stupid mofo see the game he like want to play.. then pull me down to play also.. and stupid ming cheng and jian ming also keep making me more and more dirty.. but i was super high lah.. hoho.. and joan was trying to make everyone become hitsugaya.. haha.. and i was surprised by xiang ling.. cos when they ask him to play the game.. he was like super ready.. just a nod and he took off his sandals.. nice lah.. the rest of the GLs also.. super on.. yay!!

performance night.. the GL dance was GREAT!!! they did it all so well!! i want to see the video neh.. LOL.. and the freshies performance was super great too though I wasn't there throughout..

nightwalk.. while patrolling.. i was saying "petrol.. diesel.." oh ya.. poor ron went to rest first.. cos of his leg.. everything went ok.. although it ended quite "early" in the morning.. and all the scarers did a great job not sleeping.. and we were entertained by the walkie-talkies.. if not i will cui.. LoL.. oh.. and sorry for not going to blk 80 for patrol.. wanted to go there.. but no time..

3rd day.. videos... fun day.. oh ya.. salute to all who cheered so full heartedly for lsct.. and to the mascot XL who was super cui and sweating like mad.. debriefS.. the second debrief was a very sad one.. cos i nearly cried.. seeing everyone grow up and everything.. but it was all fine! everything was happy!! and the angel and mortal thing.. I dun have angel lor.. sad.. and i think xiang ling will be super sad that I'm his angel.. LoL.. but nvm.. ha..

all in all.. I thank mofo, pam, alvin and royston for entertaining me.. and all the AGLs who came.. GLs who surprised me.. like kai hua, davin, jian ming, ming cheng, xiang ling, joan, wei san, and basically everyone!! will remember the super cute skit.. haha.. jia you~ i'm suffering from FOC syndrome.. god help..


the god of foc which Joel drew!! so nice!1 so cute!! LoL..
and anyone which pictures.. I WANT!! please send them to me!! thank you!!


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 5:10 PM



Sunday, April 08, 2007


intolerant...

hmm... this morning.. the stomach hurts.. and i didn't want to wake up.. so basically.. i missed the interview.. xue te~!! and the reason stomach hurts.. food poison.. reason for food poison.. i ate mcspicy yesterday midnight.. reason for eating.. cos the parents bought it.. so as supper i ate it.. and so.. results.. lao sai thrice.. vomit twice.. kns.. but i ate medicine.. and i'm fine~~

i must complain.. amk has everything BUT trail slippers.. WHY?!!! so sad sia.. how come sia.. where's all the trail slippers gone man.. omg..

met zhiyi and e ping for dinner~ pepper lunch and anderson's ice cream.. we ate and ate.. and talked and talked.. so long since we went out.. nice feel.. haha...

i got a question for some people.. since u have nothing to do already.. and you are so old.. why not find a full time job already? people like us.. are trying to find a job at our age.. and people like you spend all your time doing nothing.. congrats.. u have such a successful life..

camps coming soon.. jia you everyone~


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 1:56 AM



Saturday, April 07, 2007


ikimasho~u...

didn't meet cheng today.. so sad.. another day ba.. hopefully.. hehe..

so acc pam to farrer park.. and we were like retards walking here and there to find the correct bus stop.. we even walked into a police station.. and the policemen said "there should be a bus stop under the shop houses".. hmm.. so bus stops are underground nowadays.. and we finally reached vivo.. and Marche~~ Marche food.. is nice.. LoL... rosti is an all time favourite.. haha.. and pet safari dogs are all so cute!! omg!! i shall ask my auntie for her schnauzer... hope she will give.. ah.. dunno lah..

tml zoo interview.. show presenter.. hmm.. let's see how.. and shit them man.. i apply for night safari liao then u put up zoo keeper.. kns.. i shall apply for that too... and airforce.. call me quick..

Ayumi Hamasaki- Walking Proud (zee present mood?)

My lips told a lie
For a trivial reason
I suppose it was for no one else
But only to protect me
When I was thoughtless

When I noticed, I was trapped and at a loss
Surrounded by countless lies

The sky I looked up at was beautiful
I thought of youI wished I could walk with firm steps
Facing forward like you

But I escaped from the reality
Escaped from all the pain
I said to myself
"I'll be my ideal self some day
Though I'm far from that now"

After such excuses, my eyes were opened
What I could do was only to live in the present time

Does this voice reach you?
Does it ring in your heart?
I'm walking on today
Looking at your back as a guidepost to live


我有一个很简单的愿望。
可是，它永远都不会实现。


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:29 AM



Friday, April 06, 2007


sLeEP...

hmm... just edited my previous post.. .. .... ......


and i'm off to sleep!!! ha...


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 6:46 AM





St0p // CoNFirMeD

work today... was runner instead.. and today is super busy... cos tml PH ma.. so everyone no need work tml.. then go out lor.. then come cartel eat lor.. what a stupid decision.. LoL.. and wj keep saying i dirty.. where got sia.. LoL..

the zoo called.. show presenter.. sat interview.. hmm.. let's see how..

its been confirmed by me personally that its just a joke.. cos many people.. have better taste.. and he deserve better.. hoho~

tml!! Bee Cheng!! so looking forward to it.. last time went out with her was hmm... 4 months ago.. cannot say last year.. cos it makes it sound like very long ago.. which actually is.. ha.. and I don't have to borrow money from her le!! cos the "pop" suddenly got a lot of money and he actually gave a sum the price of my phone.. that's good.. cos I got no money already.. hoho..

added something on the left.. see see~ hmm.. actually its not much.. LoL..


我应该不要再去想了。
不然会疯掉。要学着吧。。

写给一位朋友：
我知道你的感觉，但我不能说我完全了解。
因为我不是当事人。可是我能说，我了解那种感受。
我知道你是坚强的。但是每个人都有脆弱的时候。
希望你能继续坚强，开开心心哦！我会在这里的！


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 3:51 AM



Wednesday, April 04, 2007


zZzzZ....

stomp the yard!!! NICE!!!! the dancers are all so zai!! and the leader for TNT is omg.. so good looking.. he body super toned... LoL.. so i was acting all bimbotic throughout the movie.. pardon me... and they said the leader looks like rio ferdinand from man u.. hmm.. okie lah..

work.. tiring.. but i went through it.. hoho.. in around 4 hrs' time.. jacqueline's flying back to her home... so sad.. so i'm sending her later.. 6am.. omg.. LoL.. and about that thing.. I think its still just a joke.. although it may be played a bit too seriously.. but still.. who can have such bad taste.. whakakaka...

and why isn't there a place which sells phones 24hrs.. no.. a starhub mobile shop which opens 24 hrs.. so now i'm like.. dunno where to go to buy a phone.. kns.. nvm.. shall see how tml... phone!! tml!! ah!!! quick quick!!!


可能你真的是我的专署天使。
但我不能讲明。因为这样还是比较好。

还有，朋友，很高兴我们解决了。
笑~ =)


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 3:09 AM



Tuesday, April 03, 2007


wA Ri...

Hmm... just a few things to add on...

我想我了解了。你想跟谁说话，想避开谁，想对谁哭诉，我都不能阻止你。因为那是你的自由。但是如果我真的对你做了什么让你伤心的事，请你让我知道。因为我不想又失去一个我珍惜的朋友。那种痛苦，很难承受。

而在这里，请让我对你说一声对不起。因为我没有让你对我有信心。没有你对我的信任。可能我对你只是一个普通的朋友。那对不起。因为我没有做到朋友应该做的。



once I said to a friend these words.. "that's what friends are for.." after watching her back for her for only 3 years.. and she remembered those words up till now.. she was grateful to me for that.. but I never remembered what I've done to gain that "grateful-ness"...

or maybe I have never fulfilled this: "Watching for each other's back.. That's what friends are for.."


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 1:36 AM





things are turning ugly...

went for dance prac, gym, and night walk recce today... a full day which was constructive.. tml's stomp the yard day!! but after that still need to work.. LoL... sian..

Today i learned something.. And that thing is that.. THREE YEARS of friendship cannot compare with one that's only around one month old.. maybe some people might say that "well, in that 3 years you may be superficial friends.." but i dare to say that this friendship is not a superficial one.. it was one which was a close one.. one which at least to me was a close one.. and yet it cannot compare to a one month old friendship..

you rather talk to her and appear offline than talk to us.. for fuck you go there when there's actually nothing much for you to do? i know you are giving concern.. I know you care.. but think about it.. i cannot say its not worth you doing so much.. but we can't always be there.. take a step back man..

for tonight.. i am totally dissappointed... i really am...


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:42 AM



Monday, April 02, 2007


pOndeR...

work today.. kitchen.. nothing much.. cos its a sunday.. and its april's fool!! so liyu bluffed the cooks (jackie and albert) that I not coming for work.. but I was actually just late.. and liyu told me the cooks jit tao keep scolding me in the kitchen.. LoL.. and then I appeared.. and happy april's fool!! LoL...

closing and everything.. helped scrubbed the bar's floor.. the 2 runners for closing today sucks.. heng i closing kitchen today.. problem is.. the 2 runners are both guys.. like.. wtf.. are guys getting more and more useless nowadays?? was looking at coming week's schedule and how stunning it is.. but nvm.. whatever lah huh...

tml go sch~!! gym!! LoL.. i'm going to be prepared to cui again.. hehe.. haha.. hoho...


她现在想要一个答案。
但那答案不容易得到。
也许永远都不会得到。
所以她觉得还是算了吧。。


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:54 AM



Sunday, April 01, 2007


pATh?

hmm.. i can't seem to be able to sleep... so I came online..

went to underwater world and zoo website and applied for various positions.. pam! if you're reading this.. go apply too! LoL.. if u want to lah..

and read through melbourne university's website.. looked through the courses for zoology, veterinary science and medicine.. all seems interesting.. am taking interest in zoology and veterinary science too... for medicine have to take if i want neurology.. hmm.. how neh..

shall wait for airforce to reply me.. hopefully they offer like.. scholarship or grant for studying something out of their field.. if not.. I'll have to make a decision.. how di..

think sc.. think...


...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 9:32 AM



..mE..
SC.. or Kerry?
aka Black
aka Ah Chan
06231987

..LoVeS..
SLEEP
Daydreaming~
$$$$$
J-pop & Manga
锦户　亮 (Kanjani8)
生田 斗真
森田 刚 (V6)
Bleach
the '仲良's
Bah Bah 6 Jie Mei
the Gang
GFDT Club
Xiao Mei


..HaTeS..
Xiao Qiangs..
Esp those that flies!


..wiShiNg fOr..
an instrument of my own
bike and car license
honda jazz
honda CBF 150
a new bike
a new mp3
a permanent slimdown
more shirts
more money
a long long long break..


..wAntS tO LeArN..
the piano.. so someone..
song composing
master my instrument
master the plane
cha do
Jap (languange)
first aiding
swimming (oops)
dance (heh??)
CREDITS
BRUSHES:1 2
DESIGNER:1 2
HOST:1
URAHARA PICTURE:1

..tAg mE..