Again another long long post..
Wed... Queensway with bahs!!! Hmm.. Okie.. I was kinda really really late.. But still reached there and there was only e-ping and zy.. Expected myself to be the latest... Ended up ther was still 2 more who were later.. LoL...
Ate the delicious laksa.. Which to the others were a bit too small.. K lah.. Its really a bit too little for a $3 thing.. LoL.. But its nice!! Hehe...
Passed through Ikea to get to the park near ht's house.. And they met Mi Lu Bing.. A group from Superband.. But I dunno them.. LoL.. cos i don't watch ah.. But nvm.. the girls were like so so so high... And then we went out of Ikea.. Then we sat at an shelter... And the shelter is so infested with mosquitos.. Problem was.. They bit everyone except zy... And ended up all of us kept complaining about the itch except for her.. LoL... But till now.. the itch is still like at its optimum!! The mosquitos power neh...
Then talked at the playground.. A little girl was like so high.. Then he finally came.. And we continued talking.. Then took bus home with eping and him...
Thursday... IS.. Got shoot by the lecturer for choosing a job totally not related to Life Science during the interview.. Like.. what the.. WISP... Nothing much.. Just the entertaining fact that some sissy can really talk so sissy-ly during the debate.. AND not admit that he's a sissy.. But judging a debate is not easy.. Yeah...
Friday.. Pig-ed my way through till 1+... And rushed down school for LSSS to hear Forday talk about our future... Its actually very sensible advice.. But its demoralising too... Look at my results and the money I have..
PS... At first wanted to go for the food fair there.. But turn out the food fair no more le.. So we went to eat Riverside Chicken!!! Nice nice.. And when we shopped until half there was this announcement saying the fire alarm has been activated.. And told us to calm down and not panick.. The problem was.. No one was giving a damn to the announcement.. There was just people saying.. "Eh.. fire drill ah?", "wah.. somebody di siao lah.." No one believed that it would be a real fire.. Singapore too safe for people to think something like a fire in shopping centre likely to happen? Hmm... But nvm.. There was really no fire in the end.. LoL...
I learnt many things... Found that I did share some same views.. Was too late for the other.. But what about me? I don't know.. Just want to know how many more will there be till we really reach that point...
You are a pain in my ass.. Seriously.. I feel like taking it all out face to face.. But what good will it do to them? Things will worsen for them.. I can't possibly be so selfish.. But I just feel that I should.. You make it as if I got no right to talk to any of them.. You just put on that disgusting I-dun-care face... You so make me want to slap and punch you until you hurt so much you cry to let me kill you.. Yes I'm sadist.. But damn it I'm in Singapore.. I can't kill... So bless you...
I just found this word which can replace fuck.. and the word is buzz! buzz off.. buzzer... yeah.. so this will be my replacement for that word.. I don't want to be labelled uncivilized... Cos' I'm just a very plain and civilized girl.. =)
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:03 AM
d0t... DoT... d0T...
This is going to be a long long long entry....
Today is a very very very bad day for me...
First.. I woke up really really late.. So I didn't go nus for DNA extraction which will like make me slow down sooo much... And so sorry yf!! For being so pig.. Hehe... Have innoculated today.. So will go tml..
Second.. My mother spoiled the necklace that he bought for me~!!! So angry!!! Ok.. So she wanted to help me clean it.. Yes.. It would be really ncie of her.. But she used some Brasso thing to clean it and was super not careful with it and then made many many bends on the necklace!!!! How can not angry!!! It was something he bought for me for my birthday!!! Something I really really treasure!! Even E-ping has contributed in helping to choose it for me!! Such a precious gift!! And she spoiled it!!!! I mean ok.. Maybe I'm wrong at not putting it in a safe place.. But has she ever let me hae my own privacy?!!! I NEED PRIVACY!!!!
Once I wake up, she rant for the WHOLE day about anything.. My sister, that man, my sister's bf, me, how we are like that man's family and not hers which to her theory is bad and many other things... I've had enough.. But I can't say that to her... If not I'll be labelled "Super Unfillial Daughter"... I admit it.. But I don't want to be labelled it.. Haiz.. Whatever.. This family just SUCKS...
What she had done had made me cry.. Really bad.. All the way from home to nus.. And I had to make it a point that no one sees.. Yes I'm weak.. I had to cry.. But I don't care.. Tell me how you feel when someone who gave birth to you spoiled something you label ultra precious...
And I finally cooled down when I see zy's msg bout' tml.. And when he called.. Thanks..
Nus and everything was fine.. Took train to yishun then.. And on the train... There's this group of guys.. 5 of them.. Who were super noisy.. And they were malays.. I'm not being racist or what.. But.. They came in.. Then when people moved out, 3 of them sat opp me.. One of them sat beside me and one standing.. Then one of them opp me who is sitting in the middle of the 3 kept mimicking a girl's voice and trying to sneeze.. And he kept making funny faces at me.. And the rest of them kept laughing.. I mean.. What the hell?? I didn't do anything to them and there they are making funny faces at me?? What shit did I do to them man??
But being the nice me.. I ignored them.. But still angry angry.. Argh.... And they left a stop before mine laughing hysterically like moronic hyenas.. They dressed like the so called "muds".. Which actually I got no prejudice against before today but now I have.. Sorry.. Its called stereotyping.. And there's a chinese proverb for it.. But I forgot.. Something about something beat the whole village people..
And he purposely came down to yishun at 8+ cos' hehe.. I asked if he can.. To eat dinner.. Which cheered me up a lot.. And I dunno what's wrong with me.. A few sms with zy and other friends about normal things can cheer me up too.. But all in all.. I really thank you all..
I think I need a lot of company and care.. Or maybe I'm just simply asking for too much..
Tomorrow's queensway with the bahs.. So long no go out with them le.. Ah... Finally.. Looking forward to tomorrow's coming.. Quick! Quick!!
Okie.. Off to mapling then... Maple has got me addicted.. =p
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 10:12 PM
wHatEveR...
I don't trust the blue men... I hate that stuff...
They made empty promises... The stuff just won't go...
And I have never ending ranting about these 2... Whatever..
We will never live in peace...
It was just courtesy.. I'm not stupid.. But what can I say... I've nursed something which should not have been nursed.. I brought this upon myself.. But I can't complain.. This world is round.. I get what I deserve.. So ya...
私は一人ぼっちね......
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 7:44 PM
maD...
I think I'm going mad... For the past few weeks... I keep dreaming of people dying or me trying to escape being killed...
First it was him.. Who died in my dream and I cried...
Second it was that sissy who chased me for dunno how many miles with a parang... Surprisingly he caught up with me.. And I nearly got killed until I woke up...
Third it was the sissy again... The bloody sissy this time wears black and has a "shadow" partner with him and chases us with guns.. Even Keira Knightly was involved... There was non of the bahs except for zhang... Weird dream...
Forthly.. I dreamt of many people dying.. Because wan told me an incident which I think I interpreted wrongly and thought it caused many friend's death.. And I cried and cried.. Miraculously I had the list of people who died on my hand when crying and benny, junwei and ron asked me what happened.. Then when I wanted to ask yf whether she heard about the deaths, I asked ht again.. And she said there wasn't any deaths.. Not even injuries.. Even weirder dream....
What's happening to this brain... No more deaths and more happy things please...
I think that word doesn't belong to me anymore....
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 8:58 PM
ItS BacK...
Finally.. My lappy's back~!! AH~!!! And in a very good condition.. Though there was a bit of delay.. Think its worth it ba..
I tried to understand what they did.. And read the repair summary.. But.. Catch No Ball... k lah.. Maybe half a ball...
Here it is.. Tell me if you understand...
Repair Summary::
Replaced mainboard- Boot up very slow. Updated bios F.13, windows update and drivers (missing). Hardisk test- passed. Unit tested ok. Cust to up your data regularly to prevent data loss caused from unforeseen failure..
Hmm... At first I thought it was custard.. Then I realised it was customer to upload your data.. Technology geeks.. Hard to understand languages.. Well nvm.. As long as my laptop's back!! Whakaka...
Got some things to say... But nvm... Maybe there's no point...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 9:58 PM
RanDom...
Hmm... Since I'm still waiting for my laptop... And got nothing to do... Then I shall blog.. Something really random...
Sometimes I realise.. I really look up to my sister...
Primary school... Her results was better than mine... Far better than mine.. And I hated her.. They kept comparing me with her.. And the problem was.. They compared my primary one results with her primary 5 results.. And so on... And she pulled me to walk very very fast home everyday after school.. And I was near flying.. She made me clique with her friends.. And I did.. Knew everyone of them and were on good terms with some.. Once she made one of her friends sad and angry and made me comfort her.. She went on to sec school.. Made achievements which I thought was great and envied her.. I finally finished PSLE and had grades much better than hers.. They said nothing of praise.. And I was dissapointed.. But me and her... Were starting to be on good terms.. Which.. I figured.. May be because of age..
Secondary school... I already knew all about her achievements in school.. Chairwoman of C.O for 2 years... Top results for every year.. Top 10 for 'O' lvls.. I looked at her results.. She was too good.. And then I joined C.O... Partly because of her.. Preceeded her post too... But I never got top 10... And I thought.. She was really too smart for me.. She went into poly.. Reason being me.. Theory was she wanted to quickly go out work.. And earn money for family and let me study.. Many people felt that she didn't need to do that for me.. Some people even thought that I'm not worth her doing that.. I did feel guilty.. But that guilty feeling never went to her ears.. She helped at the blasted stall of that man every night while studying.. That time, I wished I didn't have to do that after my 'O' lvls.. But admired her spirit still the same.. She had a malay bf and did some foolish things.. Which made her for a time look really stupid.. But after that she did change a bit... And I finished 'O's and did not get top 10 as predicted.. But was satisfied with my results whatever.. Nvm their comments..
Before polytechnic.. Sis graduated from NYP and went for a job totally unrelated to her diploma.. Quality tester for Maxtor factory.. Time was overnight.. And so the body clock was overturned.. I graduated too.. And went into Maxtor too... After searching and changing into many many jobs.. I worked overnight too.. And everyday.. we were like corpses.. Then sis quit Maxtor soon for a Sales Executive job in Best Denki.. Where she knew her bf.. And then went to sell computers in a company.. And I soon quit for I forgot what reason.. That time.. I thought.. She's really going to do something related to her diploma.. And hope she can get something good.. I went into LJS... And the pay sucks..
Polytechnic.. Started school.. And I continued working against my wishes.. But quit soon and went into cartel with you noe who.. Mainly cos of the pay.. She was thriving at the company.. But pay was still low... But her aim for working has changed.. It was no longer cos of me.. And she started having hate for the family.. Well, ok.. maybe the correct thing is she has been hating the bulk of responsibility for supporting the house.. But still I respected her.. Because she sacrificed her wish for being a neurosurgeon... She sacrificed a lot..
Our lives were no more different... But she had made achievements far better than mine.. And sacrifices far more heartbreaking than mine..
Still.... Our lives is no more different...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:23 PM
WtF....
What the f**k...
He left home around the afternoon..
Just not long ago.. The 2 blue man came.. Questioned my sister.. With the woman saying those non necessary things.. Seriously lah.. They are asking you serious question and you keep buzzing about other stuff... For what??? Saying all thse redundant things.. Even the man also does not want to listen to you... Its IRRITATING....
Then... they are "has he been coming back home?" and the woman says no... For one year already he has not come home.. Then later the girl says half a year... The man did a double take.. What is this man... For fuck you tell them he never come back? You say he tell you dun tell anyone he got come back... you listen to him for what??? haven't you had enough of listening to him and ended on the bad end??? Can't you get smart for once??
They say they are going to come for surveillance for the next 2 weeks.. Let's see.. When he comes back and they catches him... I would like to see the 2 of you explain... I wish I could scold all the vulgarities I know here... ARGH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You come back.. Acting full with dignity... And complain about everything of the house.. And of her.. And you scold her.. When I rebutt you even scold me too... You even threaten to hit me.. Come as you may... I wish I could lay the chopper on ur neck.. You don't have the right to come into this house.. You don't have the right to talk to us.. You don't have the right to even look at us.. You MORON...
I wish you were gone.. Forget fillial piety... I HATE YOU...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 11:50 PM
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Fuck You People...
You're no more different than terrorists...
Go away....
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 11:35 AM
DotS....
School still sucks the same...
Tea ceremony on Monday.. Nothing much.. Ala-meen after that.. Prata's still nice.. First time drink the orange juice there.. Quite nice.. But still like milo dinosaur.. Heh...
Today I was a bunny.. Cos met Ervia at the Convention Basement and she was doing her IS entreprenuer thingy.. And they were selling salad.. Which has lots of veggies and fruits and carrots... So I was a bunny.. Because I bought something from her.. She told me she's not together with the sissy.. And she didn't pick up his phone cos she was busy.. What the...
Not long ago.. A good friend told me.. "you got bf liao.. confirm not as close with your friends one ma..." At that point of time.. I felt that it wasn't true... But after that day.. It came to me as reality.. It was the feeling of so near yet so far.. I don't mean that I don't like to hang out with him.. But.. They are important to me too...
My prediction... It can't be any more accurate this time.. It has been revealing the truth more and more.. So much that I can't take it anymore.. I don't want anything to happen.. But I got a feeling it just won't be stopped..
Maybe I should just stay at home and never go out again...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 8:21 PM
First Week of the Holidays
Okie.. School's started.. Nice week I should say..
Many projects in the rush.. But many hiccups.. Like.. When I rushed the proteo assignment overnight and yet forgot to copy the presentation into my thumbdrive.. Without my laptop.. It means we have nothing to present.. Yeap.. Nice...
Then came the papers.. Flunked both.. Double nice.. I admit I should have failed one.. But the other one.. I can only say.. how come one whole week of study can only earn me less than half the marks.. Maybe I'm really not the study type huh...
Went hopping around blogs.. And to YOU.. Your vocab is so LIMITED.. freaking freaking freaking... That's the only word u noe.. And you think its cute using that word? No.. Seriously.. And pls lah.. You don't play sports don;t mean that people cannot talk about it in the bus lah.. The problem is with you!! Even normal girls watch the match.. Yet you?? You noe peanuts about the sport.. So pls.. You are in no position to comment on people talking about world cup.. Even in your blog..
You are such a sissy.. And so.. Pls don't even think about becoming a shuai ge after your NS... Cos.. You can never become one.. Even if you really got the looks.. with your character? its gone.. your character sucks.. You said you dunno how to turn back.. Sorry.. NOW? you want to turn back? for what? after all that you've done? Maybe you don't think you've even done much damage to me.. But let me tell u.. YOU DID... DAMN YOU... Seriously..
To a friend.. Just read it.. Sorry I wasn't there when you needed me.. Hope you are fine now.. I don't really know what to say.. But all I can say is.. Though things are not really going fine.. We will always be there.. Talk to us man.. Even though your mood bad also nvm lah.. LoL...
To another friend.. Your place is so random.. LoL.. But still... There's some entries which seems moody.. Hope you are fine.. Although I don't really understand some of the things in there.. But still hope that you are fine.. Got anything want to say just say to me ba.. I've digged my ears clean.. And its functioning well.. So it will listen.. Hehe...
Sometimes I do stupid things.. I dunno why.. And after that I feel sorry for doing them.. What is this man... Omg... Haiz.. Nvm.. off to mapling then....
Tml's a "maybe" nus day...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:18 AM
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