Hmm.. Okie.. Papers are finally done..
Basically, proteo paper is a fraud.. May have high chance of flunking it.. I don't want.. But.. If that old man wants to.. I can't help it.. BTN.. Made me stress until I dreamt about it in my sleep.. First we were in a building.. There was BTN thingy on pieces of paper and we had to fight them either with answers or basically using ur fists.. Then when I woke up from that horrible dream and slept back again.. I dreamt about me studying BTN.. What the.. stress? or just too much bioreactors? But the paper was average.. Could have done better.. But nvm... Hopefully pass..
Met him in town.. Then went to meet the bahs.. Oh.. before meeting the bahs.. We went to the mall at taka.. And bought these handphone keychains!! So cute!! They are called something angel.. And I bought the one of the native taiwanese.. Cos' its cute and I like the string.. Hehe.. Then met them.. Actually is they came.. Cos' they were actually following us.. the bahs never fail to surprise me huh.. Nice outing.. And maybe the last before so long next time..
Suddenly now, although I did post I want to go attachment.. I suddenly dread the idea.. That sucky old lab.. Those self centered people.. The need to keep booking anything u want to use.. The feeling of being scared of making mistakes.. The mere sight of that place.. SUCKS... 3 months.. I hope we can finish it by then.. bless us all..
Don't know if I should bring it up..
So confused.. So sian.. So sick..
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 1:45 AM
sUckS...
6 hrs of studying in the library.. This weird old man who sat opposite me today seriously makes people sick.. Though he reads quite useful books.. But I don't like his look.. And he damn irritating.. He kept shaking his leg and made the whole table shake.. Then the lady who shared table with us smiled at me cos' we were both giving him the "can u stop shaking" look.. Then after a while.. The lady said "excuse me can u stop shaking ur leg, its quite shocking.." hmm.. didn't know what she meant by shocking but still i'm happy that she said something.. But after that he did other things like breathing loudly out of his "feng you" and keep making that "ah.." sound.. irritating lah.. i kept diao-ing him.. want read book go home read lah.. diao si ni! diao si ni!
Hmm.. Theirs have ended.. While mine has just started.. In around 14 hrs time.. The first paper starts.. But I'm still having war with the notes.. Who will win the war neh.. Looks like the notes has better weapons then me... Or maybe my weapons can't even fight.. The notes got bomb.. Have to upgrade my weapons le.. Take nuclear bomb.. zha si ni! zha si ni!
Upset about something which happened.. Or maybe.. Something which didn't happen.. So much so that I couldn't concentrate on studying anymore and decided to stop.. Now I'm home.. And I'm still brooding over it.. And tml's exam.. whatever...
Am I being unreasonable? Or am I not being understanding?
So long since the vision was clear..
So long since it was dry..
So long since it really came from the heart..
So long since it didn't ache..
So long since it was warm..
So long since it felt light..
It's been so long..
So long...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 7:04 PM
CoMpLaiN...
I found that I can't study at home.. What with the TV blasting beside me and all the good shows.. And nothing to eat at home.. And hei hei and bai bai.. And the bed.. distractants.. LoL... Well.. Tml I'll go to the woodlands library then.. Intensive studying. I can't afford a D anymore.. K.. Althought this is a very low aim.. But I want at least a C for both that modules.. Those 2 old man's notes are making me mad.. Shall cocentrate on the younger old man's notes first.. Then the bald old man's notes after sat.. Yeap..
That sissy's blog is so bimbo~!!! Or should I say himbo as quoted from cyf.. So eeww.. Dear bahs.. If any of you are reading this.. Please go tell her.. She won't look any better even if she's thinner.. She'll be as flabby as ever without exercise and as sucky as ever with that charater of hers..
I want to go attachment as soon as possible.. K.. I think I'm weird.. Though I really detest that place.. But at least.. I can concentrate wholeheartedly into the project.. And not worry about studies in the mean time.. Can chiong that stupid project.. But I think once I go to attachment I'll start complaining again.. LoL.. Dun care.. For now I want to faster go attachment.. Hah.. Hah..
2 more papers.. It seems so long yet so fast.. I need to study!!! Woodlands here I come tml~~
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:19 AM
CeLebRaTioN...
Hmm.. okie.. Celebrated Zhiyi's bday yesterday... Was too tired so went to sleep didn't update...
Yeap.. Went to Fish & Co. for dinner.. Fish and chips for me and him and nearly everyone else.. LoL... Nice nice still.. Zy's cake was cute.. It was a tall square.. LoL.. And there was 19 candles on top.. So cute.. And its nice!! So chocolatey!!! LoL...
Walked to esplanade for fireworks.. The amount of people there was like.. Uncountable.. But the fireworks was nice!! AH~!!! I think I made a lot of noise.. Hehe.. And to those who took pictures... I WANT~!!!
Then sat on grasses at esplanade and marina square.. So sorry I left early..
All in all.. It was a happy day with all the bahs.. So long le.. Its still as happy as ever.. Hmm... Hope we will remain like this for as long as can be.. For now.. I wish all of you good luck for exams ba...
My hamsters have a new home.. Bigge one.. And hope they like it.. Not much colour inside.. Think should buy some colourful thing next time.. Think they are both male.. Later they gay how.. Hope wun ba.. LoL...
Really have to start studying.. Less than a week away to exams.. Study!!!
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 11:09 PM
Goodbye and Don't Go...
Over-overslept today till afternoon.. Then rushed down to nus...
Found out the phone was useless today unless someone called me.. So irritating.. So ya.. Number changed.. 90618535...
Also found out that lin huiting and lin zhiyi both have no sense of direction.. Zy called me to tell me she finished lesson.. So asked her whether she want come nus find me.. She agreed.. Then told her the directions.. It was either my directions are super unclear.. Or she really has no sense of direction.. That zhang took 4 shuttle bus to get to my building.. When you only need to take 1... Then I got so unsure about her direction sense that when she finally reached the correct bus stop.. I had to make her talk through the phone until she got to the correct building.. Ht.. Called me.. And suddenly asked me which stop is faster to reach if you set off from clementi.. Yew Tee? or Marsiling.. I said Yew Tee and she tell me she now the bus at republic poly le.. Nice.. 2 blur sotong..
Hmm... At first wanted to put the video clip of Zhang Zhen Yue's new song.. But no have.. So put his old song.. Ai Wo Bie Zou.. And it looks really old... >>>>>>>>>>>
Song lyrics below.. Called Zai Jian.. Its a nice song...
张震岳 - 再见
我怕我没有机会
跟你说一声再见
因为也许就再也见不到你
明天我要离开
熟悉的你
放了你
要分离
我眼泪就掉下去
我会牢牢记住你的脸
我会珍惜你给的思恋
这些日子在我心中永远都不会抹去
我不能答应你
我是否会再回来
不回头
不回头的走下去
Bah Bah wants to be cold hearted...
Bah Bah wants that hour glass Hermione has..
Bah Bah wants that remote control in "CLICK"
Bah Bah wants a restart button..
Bah Bah is going to crumple..
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:58 AM
One after the other...
I went to school.. Put the book beside zy's bag.. Went up to office to hand in the report.. Came back down.. Decided to walk pass the aqua lab towards the staircase to get down.. Then there was this sound behind.. Turned around and saw someone whom I didn't recognise... Did a double-take and realised its that bastard... His face was so contorted cos' he was diao-ing me.. Nice.. Bloody bastard.. Its a wonder how people can do wrong and yet look at other like as if the other is the bad one.. Buzzers...
Today is a really bad day.. At first I couldn't go to nus cos' I forgot my lab coat.. Then I nearly lost my ez-link card... But then again.. Maybe it wasn't that bad.. Cos' I found my ez-link card and borrowed lab coat from zy.. Just that our LB broth got contaminated and had to borrow some..
To Bah wann... Ha.. So pumpkin head is him.. LoL.. He looks like pumpkin meh? He only toot toot mah.. I heard today hs's class got test.. Then when they hand in paper le.. He guai lan them say "I give you 10 sec to go out of the lab." Diaoded... I think I won't even care..
LoL.. That sissy is a CB kia.. Like hk and mofo.. They are one of a kind.. Ask him dun be a buzzer and change his nick lah.. Please ask him dun come on saturday... I will vomit more than eat.. But I will still go even though if he's really going... Cos' we are celebrating our bah jie mei's bday~~
Ya keep remindin' me..
Ya keep tellin' me..
But I wanna let you know..
That I'm.. Dissapointed to the edge..
I can't take it anymore..
I wanna take it all out..
Make it known..
Make it shown..
Tell it
But then in the end..
I pat myself on the back..
And say "don't worry.. its ok.."
"maybe i'm askin' too much.."
to ease that thing in my mind..
BUZZER..
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 9:09 PM
niEh...
Okie.. Its another long long post.. Ha.. So sorry..
Past week was a waste... Did nothing much reproductive...
Okie.. Accept for the fact that I have nothing more to do with the sissy called Tan Hong Wei... Screwed my IL prac test.. Why? Cos' I don't know really how to do the dilution.. How really to calculate.. How to even calibrate and what the hell the gels are showing.. LSSS was ok.. Hopefully it wasn't that screwed...
Saw Dr Koh and Gordon Lim running for Fnut race.. A bit the funny.. But heck.. Is it me or what? I'm starting to dislike Dr Koh more and more.. Maybe cos I'm the minority who have seriously hopeless results and he can't care less.. and his lectures and tutorials are damn boring.. maybe its my problem.. but nvm..
blog hopped...
this issue about the results.. seriously.. I'm happy for her that she got such high marks.. heck those people who were jealous.. maybe its just cyc's fault.. we can't blame her.. and ya.. I had seriously wonderful results duing my sec sch life.. and it just ended after like.. sec 3? maybe we aren't that smart or hardworking.. but we are trying..
to someone, you can get in de lah.. don't worry so much.. be confident in yourself.. and you went to the fair~!!! How was it? I wanted to go.. But.. Nvm... Tell me how it looks like man..
to another person.. sorry.. I still haven't found that button.. I really really wish I can find it.. Maybe I should go around pressing buttons.. LoL... and trust me.. if you're going to fail proteo.. maybe I can join you.. my results aren't that good either.. maybe we have the same feelings about that lecturer huh.. whakaka... and may your eyes recover..
received a call from wann today and she told me that sissy's hate to me is gone and he wants to talk to me again.. ha.. i''ll reply him: "buzz you.. get out of my sight.." You think that you're so smart and have such good grades.. You keep sucking up to smarties and say that you're only using them.. Look at yourself first.. You stick to them cos' you don't even have friends who want to hang around you for more than 5 sec.. You're a disgrace.. Stop sucking up to people and act so buzzing high-class like some gigolo sissy.. Sorry.. Maybe you ARE a gigolo with all the riches you have.. Pity those obasan..
You say you want to talk to me again and that you have no more hate against me.. Easy to say huh... How much damage you have done to me.. You cannot even imagine with your puny brain.. Maybe you don't even have any.. Don't even think about talking to me ever again UNLESS you kneel down infront of me and say you're sorry.. Hmm.. Maybe I won't talk to you after that too.. Cos' its such bonus that I don't have a friend like you in my life.. You're such a buzzer.. Quit all you childishness and let us live in peace..
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 11:05 PM
zZzzzzz......
Hmm.. okie.. First news I got today was my BTN test 2 results.. 52/100... Buzz..... But yf got like 73~!!!! CONGRATS!! Haha... She so clever neh...
Calculated marks I need to get at least A or B for proteo and BTN... But its impossible unless I get like more than 96 for finals.. If I really achieve that.. Then it would be super miraculous.. The most marks I can get for exams like these is just like 80.. If I do study hard? and sometimes even when I really study hard I just get like 60+? So ya.. another 2 Cs for CORE modules.. But I've got hope for IL2, ERA and WISP.. I hope... LSSS.. Hmm... I'll try hard...
Chung How came to talk to me.. Well, think his main purpose was to make me go to his church.. But he made a point.. He asked me to think about when I helped someone.. What did I feel.. And I said..
...CsCAhChaN... ...... if there was a restart button for life.. says:
sense of achievement?
ha.. very song..
LoL..
y neh?
yes.. that's what I said.. and he said that sense of achievement can be something which surpasses any other forms of achievements we can think of.. its correct... But living in this cruel realistic world.. what can we do but keep striving for the best?
he also asked me why I wanted to have a restart button in my life.. well.. I just want to restart it to that time just after my 'O' levels.. Then I can save more money from working.. Then I can don't get to know those bastards who did ruin my life.. And I can even study better... Buck up... Like I never did... But well.. If I restarted.. Maybe I won't remember a thing and commit those moronic mistakes again.. So no point maybe.. But I still hope there's a restart button.. For chances maybe?
I tried to pursue my dreams.. But yet those dreams are turning into a nightmare.. Why? Cos' of this family.. Cos of so many many other reasons.. I can't say them all out here.. Well, yes.. I'm like turning into a pessimist.. Cos' I seriously have no more heart to study... Unless someone can confirm to me having average C grade results can allow me into a job which is related to science.. And offers good and stable pay.. A good university which allows me to study what I want with exemption... Tell me that and I will pia all the way... But everywhere is telling me.. Hey.. with an average C grade.. You're going no where man.. Well... I'll just have to get on with my life then.. So far....
Read a blog.. Which utters real words of concern for my studies... LoL.. its not nagging to me.. its concern.. And I appreciate that.. I just want you to know that.. Please don't have that feeling about me that I'm going to give up.. Yes.. Maybe sometimes I am.. I seriously feel like.. But up till now.. I have not choice.. I can just get C or D grade for everything but I don't want to.. I'm trying to study... Cos' I wnt to continue in science.. Science has been my favourite thing since primary school... Even though I have always knew languages was my better fort.. But I never gave up science.. And I don't want to give it up now..
Eh.. well.. And I play maple.. Well.. maybe I really a bit addicted.. but I play it to destract me from something at home.. I used study as a tool for destraction before and it doesn't work.. I really did try.. So ya.. that's the reason... I have my self discipline.. when exam comes.. I'll reduce playing.. I'm not a hard core gamer.. No worries... =)
So ya.. I think I have to really think more positive.. POSITIVE~~~!!!!!
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:22 AM
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