one moment he's barking mad.. spouting the ugliest things imaginable on earth..
one moment he's violent.. threatening my head..
one moment he's depressed.. 哭父哭母-ing...
one moment he's suicidal.. 哭父哭母-ing and attempting..
constantly..
he's giving us hell.. killing my senses..
i can only taste fury.. and be engulfed by hatred.. of the deepest..
i noe i'm a failure.. not even being able to provide when he needs to go to the hospital..
but damn it..
sometimes i have the feeling its not even real..
even if it is.. we aren't like people who can provide so much extra cash..
condemn me to the worst of all people..
i am very clear of the sins of fillial piety i have commited..
and sometimes.. i dun care..
be amazed that i haven't even laid the chopper on his head..
not even once these 20 years of my life..
be amazed i'm still sane..
for living in this place.. for 20 years of my life..
maybe i'm not even sane..
who noes...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 6:55 AM
SC.. or Kerry?
aka Black
aka Ah Chan
06231987
SLEEP
Daydreaming~
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锦户 亮 (Kanjani8)
生田 斗真
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Bleach
the '仲良's
Bah Bah 6 Jie Mei
the Gang
GFDT Club
Xiao Mei
Xiao Qiangs..
Esp those that flies!
an instrument of my own
bike and car license
honda jazz
honda CBF 150
a new bike
a new mp3
a permanent slimdown
more shirts
more money
a long long long break..
the piano.. so someone..
song composing
master my instrument
master the plane
cha do
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first aiding
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